emiri: (nnnnnnno thanks.)
"I just had the worst day today, I just-- like, everything went wrong from beginning to end, and my period's due soon so I'm getting all upset over everything and nothing, and I'm so stressed out about everything that's due, and I managed to injure myself twice and--"
"..."
"--aaaand you don't care, nevvvver mind!"
"Well, it's in the past now, what do you want me to do about it?"
"Nothing, I just-- god, never mind. And I thought Dad was unsympathetic."


And she wonders why I'm an uncaring selfish bitch?
emiri: (idle days)
I should probably give an update on the parental situation. Thank you to everyone who commented on the last entry, even if I don't really have the emotional energy to reply to all of them.

I made it pretty clear to my parents that I was upset that they wouldn't be here for my 21st next year, so they've agreed to change the dates of their trip so they can be back in time for my 21st, though still not for Christmas/New Years, but whatever, I'll take what I can get. And hey, on the plus side, I'm not above using it as a guilt tripping tool to get really expensive shit that I want for my birthday. Like a birthday dinner with my parents at Aria which I've only wanted to go to for years and doubly so since the Master Chef finale (holy crap did you see that dessert???) so. You know. It's not all bad! Christmas alone is shitty but I figure I can stay positive if I manage to wrangle something good out of it.

Mum's also been bugging me lately about what I want to do for my 21st, but I keep telling her that I don't know, and that it's 6 months away still so what does it matter? And she keeps saying that she needs to book the venue, but I'm like... I'm not gonna have a big party with heaps of people because end of the line is that I just don't HAVE that many friends, and besides I don't really drink, so whatever, you know? I wouldn't be having it at a bar.

So! Anyone got any good ideas for 21st parties you can do that are fun that don't involve drinking? I already did karaoke this year, so that's out :(.
emiri: (keeping my mouth shut)
I'm too emotionally and physically exhausted to do a proper write up so I'm just going to copy and paste the rant from IRC.

<Emiri|ish> I HATE MY PARENTS
<Emiri|ish> fjsdjhjkh
<Emiri|ish> rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh
<Emiri|ish> BAH
<Emiri|ish> okay i'm good now.
<Leopard> D:?
<Emiri|ish> idk i haven't been with my parents on christmas the last two years in a row*
<Emiri|ish> last year i made a big fuss about it but they didn't really seem to care
<Emiri|ish> in the car today my mum was like "oh by the way you'll need to find somewhere/someone to stay with during the chrissy hols this year since we're going to vietnam over christmas."
<Emiri|ish> and i was just like. whatever. i'm used to it by now.
<Emiri|ish> then i asked, because my 21st is on Jan 5th, what date they'd be back
<Emiri|ish> and she goes "oh, the 8th"
<Emiri|ish> and it was just like
<Emiri|ish> OKAY FINE, MISS CHRISTMAS AGAIN, FUCK YOU I DON'T EVEN CARE ANY MORE
<Emiri|ish> BUT MY BIRTHDAY?? MY 21ST?? WHAT THE SHIT AUGH WHY
<Emiri|ish> IT'S NOT LIKE YOU'RE BEING CALLED AWAY ON BUSINESS, YOU CAN CHOOSE ANY DAY OR TIME OF YEAR TO HOLIDAY ON
<Emiri|ish> and THEN they have the nerve to WONDER WHY WE AREN'T A CLOSE KNIT FAMILY
<Emiri|ish> WELL GEE EINSTEIN, I'M NOT SURE, BUT I'D TAKE A GUESS THAT IT'S YOUR TOTAL LACK OF CONCERN FOR QUALITY FAMILY TIME
<Emiri|ish> i just
<Emiri|ish> aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
<Emiri|ish> rage rage raaaage
<Emiri|ish> okay really fine now.

* I know two years ago I actually did have the best Christmas ever with Tatsie's family in America, but that was still my parents' doing in a round about way. My parents told me early on in the year that they'd be going away somewhere (they didn't say where) for Christmas at the end of the year so I'd have to make my own plans, so I saved all my money and went to America. Also, though this is going to be the third year in a row, it's not only the third time this has happened. My parents have done this so many times. When I went to Japan on exchange in grade 10 too, I was there over Christmas. And they said before I left "Oh, we'll come over to see you in Japan in late January." And I asked "Why not over Christmas/my birthday?" And they simply said they had other things organised then :\. And I just. Auuuuuuuugh.

I am just... so full of anger right now. Why do my feelings count for nothing in this family?
emiri: (Default)
Man, I just can't win.

I go to college and I have to adjust my sleep schedule because nobody ever quietens down before midnight, so I can't get to sleep early but I can sleep in late.

I come back home and then am suddenly and cruelly reminded that my parents are CRAZY MORNING PEOPLE who think it is totally socially acceptable to wake me up at 7 AM with the sound of the insinkerator (I believe you call it a kitchen garbage disposal in the US?) because of course I'd be awake by now anyway, right?

PROTIP: NO I WAS NOT, AND NO I DO NOT APPRECIATE IT, AND NO IT IS NOT ACCEPTABLE. Aauughhh. Now I have a tension headache from not getting enough zzz's, and of course can't get back to sleep. Go figure. Thanks family!
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