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I'm too emotionally and physically exhausted to do a proper write up so I'm just going to copy and paste the rant from IRC.

<Emiri|ish> I HATE MY PARENTS
<Emiri|ish> fjsdjhjkh
<Emiri|ish> rrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh
<Emiri|ish> BAH
<Emiri|ish> okay i'm good now.
<Leopard> D:?
<Emiri|ish> idk i haven't been with my parents on christmas the last two years in a row*
<Emiri|ish> last year i made a big fuss about it but they didn't really seem to care
<Emiri|ish> in the car today my mum was like "oh by the way you'll need to find somewhere/someone to stay with during the chrissy hols this year since we're going to vietnam over christmas."
<Emiri|ish> and i was just like. whatever. i'm used to it by now.
<Emiri|ish> then i asked, because my 21st is on Jan 5th, what date they'd be back
<Emiri|ish> and she goes "oh, the 8th"
<Emiri|ish> and it was just like
<Emiri|ish> OKAY FINE, MISS CHRISTMAS AGAIN, FUCK YOU I DON'T EVEN CARE ANY MORE
<Emiri|ish> BUT MY BIRTHDAY?? MY 21ST?? WHAT THE SHIT AUGH WHY
<Emiri|ish> IT'S NOT LIKE YOU'RE BEING CALLED AWAY ON BUSINESS, YOU CAN CHOOSE ANY DAY OR TIME OF YEAR TO HOLIDAY ON
<Emiri|ish> and THEN they have the nerve to WONDER WHY WE AREN'T A CLOSE KNIT FAMILY
<Emiri|ish> WELL GEE EINSTEIN, I'M NOT SURE, BUT I'D TAKE A GUESS THAT IT'S YOUR TOTAL LACK OF CONCERN FOR QUALITY FAMILY TIME
<Emiri|ish> i just
<Emiri|ish> aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
<Emiri|ish> rage rage raaaage
<Emiri|ish> okay really fine now.

* I know two years ago I actually did have the best Christmas ever with Tatsie's family in America, but that was still my parents' doing in a round about way. My parents told me early on in the year that they'd be going away somewhere (they didn't say where) for Christmas at the end of the year so I'd have to make my own plans, so I saved all my money and went to America. Also, though this is going to be the third year in a row, it's not only the third time this has happened. My parents have done this so many times. When I went to Japan on exchange in grade 10 too, I was there over Christmas. And they said before I left "Oh, we'll come over to see you in Japan in late January." And I asked "Why not over Christmas/my birthday?" And they simply said they had other things organised then :\. And I just. Auuuuuuuugh.

I am just... so full of anger right now. Why do my feelings count for nothing in this family?