how did this happen?

So. I may or may not have been topped into apping someone completely different to who I've been planning to app for the past month, two hours before I'm set to go to bed for the night. (And I wake up just as the app window opens.) This is saying something, considering that I'm not easily topped into apping. Also considering how many people would SMACK ME SO HARD for not apping who I originally intended.

I also may or may not be crazy for actually attempting it. SEND PSYCHIATRIC HELP. SOB.

This is not success.