another cryptic post, sorry.

what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck

that is so messed up

i just

what??

no you can't DO that.


i get the feeling this is bothering me more than it's bothering the person in question but, god. i can't deal with it. if there's no hope for them then what hope is there for the rest of us? fuck.

okay, breathing a little more now. i'm pretty sure it's bothering me so much because of the suddenness, without any warning or explanation, so it seems so out of the blue. i'm sure there's actually quite a lot behind it, but it still bothers me. there are some things that you just think are going to last forever, you know? and

i guess it also bothers me, that maybe if we were close like we had been, i would have known about this, or seen it coming, but i didn't because we're not close anymore and i had no idea and just. fuck.